Music therapy

I guess I always new music was good for me but until recently I never really listened to the words of the songs that I wrote with the hindsight of being bipolar.  I guess if you look for it you can find it anywhere, but you can certainly find it in my lyrics, thats for sure.

Here's some of the more obvious ones for your delight:-

"You say I've lost my mind, then you list the other crimes, that keep me alive to love you."

"Lay me down and let me sleep, spend forever in broken dreams, cos I know I will be safe, til I can keep myself awake."

"This place where I've been, been trying to move on, no sign of an exit can't find my way home
Can't move to the left, no space to the right, this place is full of people til the dead of the night.
Its heartache city."

I guess that expression and music have to go hand in hand, and you can only really write what you know. I get my creativity coming through at its best when I'm manic, so it makes sense that I would want to express that conflicting feeling of elation and energy with being confined and overwhelmed and anxious and confused.  Its just a shame that when I'm having a mixed episode I tear it all up, all the good work, hundreds of songs that were probably just fine have been destroyed on a whim because I didn't like them at that time.

I hope music continues to be my therapy and that bipolar finds its muse.  Maybe those songs are the best way that I explain to my loved ones how it really feels and how to best help me.